In my life before,
I thought there was an adversary.
Before,
there was always someone to blame.
Before,
I could say this or that.
So . . .
Now what?
True experience? Total presence?
I don't even feel like looking for answers,
to tell you the truth.
But
if i were to look?
If I were to look,
I would want to find them with you.
I'd want to sit across from you
maybe on top of you
and stare so deeply into your eyes
feel you so deeply inside of me
that with even the very slightest movement
worlds would merge
and stir and shake,
and fullness would rake all of the leaves of despair
away from this place.
a pair
a pairing fairness liking the sun and faeries,
ferns in filtered sunlight,
flamboyant flying of predators,
seeking prey below,
and butterflies
and river rocks
unaware of worry,
or of time.
i want the answers to be found in our union.
i want to know where to go next because
we put our hearts and heads together
and came up with something.
something to start with.
then the next thing
and the next.
then we can celebrate all of it.
a party for two
and then four
and then eight.
a community growing larger,
touching and singing,
music and dancing.
chaos and harmony, overlapping.
parties of friends,
people we love.
every night
we glance across the room at each other
eyes and smiles and perfection
knowing we've finally arrived
at that place where
we've cared so much for each other
that we have a hundred times that love to share.
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